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outerfringe ([personal profile] outerfringe) wrote2022-08-25 03:40 am

@hardlydead

[One day David simply stops appearing by the fire with the rest of them, and Jeff does his very best to be relieved for him. There are only two real possible reasons for that, right? Either he'd actually died for real, or he'd managed to find a way back home- and either way, it meant that he was out of this place. Jeff tries to be happy for him, and for the most part, he is.

He doesn't think about David at all the first day after he wakes up on the cold floor of the Ormond resort, back stiff and jacket crusted with frost. Instead he's too busy finding his way back to town, organizing arrangements to make it home. His apartment key no longer works, he recognizes none of his neighbors, but his bank account was still somehow in alright standing.

Jeff finds a new place. He does not find a new dog.

He feels weird about creating a Facebook account just to check for David, but he does it anyway. When that comes up fruitless, he thinks a lot about the conversations the two of them had while tucked close together in the dark. Wonders if David would even want to be found by someone like him, to be faced with a reminder of the time they'd spent doing everything they could to simply survive.

Jeff tries to paint but can't seem to pull himself out of severe blacks and reds. Tries to catch up on the music he'd missed from the bands he'd loved but it fails to soothe him the way it had before. He considers a therapist, and then decides that he'd be locked away the second he was candid enough for someone to actually help him.

So he packs some things, books a flight. Finds himself at his fifth seedy pub in three days without much hope - except this time when he says he's looking for David King, the big guy by the bar makes a point of sizing him up. Jeff sets his shoulders, frowns and promises that he's an old friend, but it doesn't seem to affect much the scowl on the guy's face. He says something (that Jeff completely misses, he can barely understand a goddamn thing when people here are drunk and loud), but seems to indicate for him to wait.

Which he does. He parks on a stool with a drink, assumes his most unapproachable aura, and waits. He doesn't know who he's expecting to appear, but it's not David.

There's not a chance it would actually be that simple.]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ that makes him relax, or at least exhale softly through his nose, and he looks up at jeff. expression quietly thoughtful despite glossing entirely over the why of it, and david reaches up with the closer hand to find jeff's face. this was very sweet of him, regardless of how stiff and weird david was. ]

If you're sure.

[ that's fine by him and he's definitely not jealous ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 07:14 am (UTC)(link)
Not the worst thing you could say.

[ he watches jeff get up and go, frowning a little when he's not being looked at anymore. sure messed that all up. good job, david. ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ david rolls to his side when jeff sits on the bed, puts a hand on his knee just for the contact. he's quiet for a few moments other than the soft noise he makes to acknowledge what jeff's said, and then looks up at him with a small, apologetic frown. ]

Sorry.

[ he knows jeff's probably going to tell him not to be sorry, but he is. genuine intimacy and tenderness are both things he's trying to learn very quickly, but he's still got some work there. ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 08:23 am (UTC)(link)
No-- [ he breathes out through his nose, it's very nearly a laugh. ] I mean about before. For being so awkward.

[ also stop? talking about your old cool band friend??? ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 08:44 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I know, I just...

[ he trails off into a soft, breathy laugh. still embarrassed, but he can find the humour in it all. ]

You're being all sweet, and I'm laying there stiff as a board thinking "the fuck do I do?"

[ he gives jeff's knee a light squeeze ]

Not my greatest moment.
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 11:09 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not good at that. [ he looks at his hand on jeff's knee, brushes his thumb back and forth. ] Being looked after.
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
No. [ he shakes his head. ] I've just got some shit to work on.

[ it's just toxic macho bullshit telling him it's an unacceptable weakness to let someone take care of him for a bit, that's all! no big deal. ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-17 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he very nearly laughs, but that's fair. david still raises his eyebrows when he looks up at jeff's expression. ]

Do I seem like someone who's ever tried to change for somebody else?

[ quite the opposite really, at least how he sees himself. his stubbornness and reticence to change are often to his own detriment more than anything. ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-18 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ he tilts his head a little toward jeff's hand, encouraging. ]

Well I'm not.
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-18 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ he's content to let that lie, just quietly enjoying the touch of jeff's hand. after some of that though, he gives his leg a light jostle. ]

So you gonna come down here or not?
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-18 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
C'mere and tell me what you're in the mood for then.

[ he smiles up at jeff, waiting for him to lay down so he can get in his business. ]
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-18 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ david pulls himself right up against jeff and slips his arm around him. vast improvement. much better. laughing suddenly at jeff's thoughts on british food. ]

That's what you're getting for brekkie tomorrow.
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[personal profile] hardlydead 2022-10-18 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
I'm Northern, mate. Practically raised on chips and gravy.

[ and who doesn't love some squeaky cheese? ]

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